[It's interesting, in a way, how Nisei can pull out the darkest emotions in Ritsuka. Nisei makes Ritsuka want to be violent. It makes him want to hurt the older boy. Nisei's barbs and jabs hit so accurately that the violence it pulls out of Ritsuka almost seems natural and that scares him. He had been fine with Soubi hurting Nisei. He didn't care about Nisei being tied up and injured at the Academy. He had wanted Nisei to be hurt. He had wanted Soubi to destroy Nisei and knowing that scared him deeply. How could one person he barely knew make him so angry? How did Nisei know him so well as to be able to make such hurtful and wounding comments?
He gulps and his fists clench. He wants to hit Nisei. He wants to hurt him and Ritsuka fights every fiber in his being to do so. His teeth clench as he tries not to let such a comment hurt, straight to the heart though it had hit. He wants to say "I don't mean to do it." His own psyche was so warped he couldn't even think that his mother was wrong trying to force him to be the old Ritsuka. That it was wrong for him to try and be what she wanted. No, Ritsuka's mind could only focus on the fact that he was hurting his mother by existing.]
You don't know anything. [Because he doesn't know how Nisei had snuck into the house. He wants to believe Nisei is ignorant of the issues going on in his home.]
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He gulps and his fists clench. He wants to hit Nisei. He wants to hurt him and Ritsuka fights every fiber in his being to do so. His teeth clench as he tries not to let such a comment hurt, straight to the heart though it had hit. He wants to say "I don't mean to do it." His own psyche was so warped he couldn't even think that his mother was wrong trying to force him to be the old Ritsuka. That it was wrong for him to try and be what she wanted. No, Ritsuka's mind could only focus on the fact that he was hurting his mother by existing.]
You don't know anything. [Because he doesn't know how Nisei had snuck into the house. He wants to believe Nisei is ignorant of the issues going on in his home.]